September 29, 2004
Lessons in Cup Peeing
I can not believe that in order for my doc to confirm my pregnancy (because the 6 tests I took apparently were inconclusive in her mind) .. where was I .. oh yes I can't believe they make me aim and pee in this little cup. I of course pee all over my hand, not a surprise, my hand-eye cordination has never really been the greatest. Needless to apparently, now that they have been able to conduct their own high tech pregnancy urine tests ... I'M PREGNANT!!!! I'm really starting to think there is something wrong with my mood these days ... my vulgar language and sarcasm has reached new heights .. even for me!
September 24, 2004
Coffee does not taste as good in reverse!
I don't know if it's because I keep thinking I'm going to get sick that is making me sick or if I'm actually getting morning sickness at this point. I think it's because I'm concentrating on it too much. At first I thought it would be great if I found out early on that I was pregnant because I could take better care of myself and start to prepare earlier but I think it is going to make this journey seem even longer. It seems although I know I'm pregnant I really have nothing to prove it yet. I guess I'd rather be at this stage then at the stage where you jusk look like you're putting on weight for no reason ... which is exactly the stage I figure I'll be at when I go to Amy's Christmas party with her again this year. Last years Christmas party I wore this nice black off the shoulder dress and major heals (I thought I was super sexy) and we drank Green Amy's all night ... this year I'll be wearing something closer to oversized pants and drinking milk ... don't get me wrong I love milk and I have been waiting for this pregnancy for some time ... but I'll miss those going out moments. We had such a blast last year. Ahh the life. Well atleast this year if I was to do something similar like blurt out Tanya and Jims secret I could blame in on pregnancy brain!
So no symptoms really .. again except for the induced vomiting but I really think if anybody thought about it long enough it would happen to them also. My boobs are a little tender and I feel some odd stretching or pulling or something going on down there .. ohh and I can feel myself being more sensitive and wanting to cry ... that could be from pent up years of emotions wanting to get out and now finally having an excuse though.
So no symptoms really .. again except for the induced vomiting but I really think if anybody thought about it long enough it would happen to them also. My boobs are a little tender and I feel some odd stretching or pulling or something going on down there .. ohh and I can feel myself being more sensitive and wanting to cry ... that could be from pent up years of emotions wanting to get out and now finally having an excuse though.
September 21, 2004
There's only one person in this family who can count ...
That's right!! Apparently mom should not be waiting for NASA to call with that interview any time soon. I was dead on with my dates and we finally got that (+) pregnancy test (after hundreds of negatives) that we've been waiting for. That's not too bad really 8-9 months of trying ... several thousand pregnancy tests ... hundreds of inexplicable symptoms I created in my head ... ohh and let's not forget one unused pack of Clomid! Didn't I call that one? The second those fertility drugs made their way to my mailbox, boom I'm pregnant!
I really couldn't believe it when I saw the line. I had taken so many tests that I think I just expected it to be negative. I peed, put it on the counter and began to brush my teeth not paying any attention to it whatsoever and then out of the corner of my eye I thought for sure it was trying to make a line. I had to run and wake up JJ and ask for a second opinion .. there goes all those surprises and special ways I had planned to tell him. He said we're even since I got the lame proposal. Sure enough though he could see it too. So then he asks me to take another one just to be sure. At this time I have to explain the concept of after your first pee, first morning urine is gone and of course I flushed it not thinking I should really save any. So for the next three mornings I take another .. each of them darker than the other.
So I am officially PREGNANT!!! ***how crazy is this eh?***
Needless to say JJ and I are both very excited. We have taken turns and pretty much let the most important people know .. I expect everyone else to find out by word of mouth. JJ wanted to go shopping right away so last night we went out to Walmart and instead of getting the stroller he wanted I convinced him to buy the diaper genie and a snugli. I just am not ready to make large purchases yet, at the same I know how excited he is and don't really want to deter him in any way.
So according to pregnancy today I am on day 26, gestational age is 12 days ? Who knows .. due date of June 3, 2005 (which I believe is based on a 28 day cycle and mine are more 24 days). I will wait for an official ultrasound to tell me exactly how far along I am and when the due date is. As of now no real symptoms, although everybody insists I'm cranky, I truly don't know where this is coming from. I think they CRAZY FREAKING BASTARDS, THAT SHOULD JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND DIE!! **Just kidding**kinda**
I really couldn't believe it when I saw the line. I had taken so many tests that I think I just expected it to be negative. I peed, put it on the counter and began to brush my teeth not paying any attention to it whatsoever and then out of the corner of my eye I thought for sure it was trying to make a line. I had to run and wake up JJ and ask for a second opinion .. there goes all those surprises and special ways I had planned to tell him. He said we're even since I got the lame proposal. Sure enough though he could see it too. So then he asks me to take another one just to be sure. At this time I have to explain the concept of after your first pee, first morning urine is gone and of course I flushed it not thinking I should really save any. So for the next three mornings I take another .. each of them darker than the other.
So I am officially PREGNANT!!! ***how crazy is this eh?***
Needless to say JJ and I are both very excited. We have taken turns and pretty much let the most important people know .. I expect everyone else to find out by word of mouth. JJ wanted to go shopping right away so last night we went out to Walmart and instead of getting the stroller he wanted I convinced him to buy the diaper genie and a snugli. I just am not ready to make large purchases yet, at the same I know how excited he is and don't really want to deter him in any way.
So according to pregnancy today I am on day 26, gestational age is 12 days ? Who knows .. due date of June 3, 2005 (which I believe is based on a 28 day cycle and mine are more 24 days). I will wait for an official ultrasound to tell me exactly how far along I am and when the due date is. As of now no real symptoms, although everybody insists I'm cranky, I truly don't know where this is coming from. I think they CRAZY FREAKING BASTARDS, THAT SHOULD JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND DIE!! **Just kidding**kinda**
September 16, 2004
I obviously can't count
How can it be that I work in the accounting field and yet can not count to 28 to figure out my cycle days and ovulation days (likely not something I should be revealing since I have recently found out my boss is reading this *HI SUSAN* I really can count I promise).
Why is it all so tricky? Last month when I thought my period was two days late my mom quickly pointed out to me that I wasn't actually expecting it until the following week. So that meant that the counting of days and math I had been doing to find my peak fertile days had gone down the drain. Which in turn meant the days JJ and I were trying to reenact the life of bunnies .. useless .. and the days we decided to catch up on sleep .. wrong. So last night Amy says to me she feels her period coming and that since I am right before that means I should be any day now. Well based on all my very extensive calculations, she is correct (in my obviously confused brain), I should be starting this weekend .. right before my trip once again .. it all makes sense. Until ....
Along comes mom again ... (with a brain resembling Einsteins) *why does she work here .. she should be the chief engineer at NASA, while I should be biggy sizing as many fries as possible* so here comes mom .. processing numbers, counting days, looking at the moons on the calendar .. and then she speaks "You don't get your period until next weekend .. you know you shouldn't be allowed to do this .. you should require someone else to count your days for you !!" This time I can not argue with her. So once again the days we acted like procreating and animals, were for nothing other than practice and entertainment .. and the days we caught up on our sleeping *except for the one night JJ got a present*, these days were the prime days that we of course missed. I can't believe I'm consider using ovulating inducing medication when I can't even figure out what day I'm ovulating. It's no wonder I'm not getting pregnant.
So what am I to do .. put someone in charge as my human ovulation calculator .. Amy I think you should "take one for the team" this time. I'm sure you owe me, maybe not in this way .. but remember Spiderman. We both know you are a great counter and I truly think that the only reason you were craving food and feeling funny yesterday was not because your period was coming but because you were predicting ovulation occuring in my body with your ESP telepathic like ovaries.
LOOKING FOR HUMAN CALCULATOR
Why is it all so tricky? Last month when I thought my period was two days late my mom quickly pointed out to me that I wasn't actually expecting it until the following week. So that meant that the counting of days and math I had been doing to find my peak fertile days had gone down the drain. Which in turn meant the days JJ and I were trying to reenact the life of bunnies .. useless .. and the days we decided to catch up on sleep .. wrong. So last night Amy says to me she feels her period coming and that since I am right before that means I should be any day now. Well based on all my very extensive calculations, she is correct (in my obviously confused brain), I should be starting this weekend .. right before my trip once again .. it all makes sense. Until ....
Along comes mom again ... (with a brain resembling Einsteins) *why does she work here .. she should be the chief engineer at NASA, while I should be biggy sizing as many fries as possible* so here comes mom .. processing numbers, counting days, looking at the moons on the calendar .. and then she speaks "You don't get your period until next weekend .. you know you shouldn't be allowed to do this .. you should require someone else to count your days for you !!" This time I can not argue with her. So once again the days we acted like procreating and animals, were for nothing other than practice and entertainment .. and the days we caught up on our sleeping *except for the one night JJ got a present*, these days were the prime days that we of course missed. I can't believe I'm consider using ovulating inducing medication when I can't even figure out what day I'm ovulating. It's no wonder I'm not getting pregnant.
So what am I to do .. put someone in charge as my human ovulation calculator .. Amy I think you should "take one for the team" this time. I'm sure you owe me, maybe not in this way .. but remember Spiderman. We both know you are a great counter and I truly think that the only reason you were craving food and feeling funny yesterday was not because your period was coming but because you were predicting ovulation occuring in my body with your ESP telepathic like ovaries.
LOOKING FOR HUMAN CALCULATOR
- MUST BE ABLE TO COUNT TO 28
- MUST BE ABLE TO COUNT BACKWARDS FROM 12, SOMETIMES 16
- REASONABLE RENUMERATION TO BE DISCUSSED (perhaps you could name my next born???)
September 09, 2004
Professor Randall Fisher
This semester I am taking BUSI2255 at MSVU. After Economics beating my brain to death I just could not bring myself to take Stats .. apparently I'm still recovering from last years beating ..
.. Anyhow my professor mentioned googling himself the other day for fun and happened to find a few other shady characters with the same name. I thought maybe if he tried it again and found my blog perhaps he would feel bad for me and a be a little more understanding with my grade if he knew how much time I had to spend checking myself for stretchy, watery cervical mucas every 15 minutes all day long waiting for ovulation to happen !! phew, that was hard to get out .. look at what my life has become. I wonder if Professor Randall Fisher will be understanding and allow me to do my paper on the cycle of cervial mucus throughout a womans cycle. I know not much to do with business or information systems for that matter but where I've already spent so much time researching and I've read "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" from cover to cover .. oh well I can atleast hope right?
If anything I'm hoping this class will take my mind of TTC. My last shot was on September 10, 2003, which means it wore off sometime around December .. I really didn't expect it would take this long. I'm not sure why, but for some reason I thought I wouldn't follow statistics .. that I would be different somehow.
.. Anyhow my professor mentioned googling himself the other day for fun and happened to find a few other shady characters with the same name. I thought maybe if he tried it again and found my blog perhaps he would feel bad for me and a be a little more understanding with my grade if he knew how much time I had to spend checking myself for stretchy, watery cervical mucas every 15 minutes all day long waiting for ovulation to happen !! phew, that was hard to get out .. look at what my life has become. I wonder if Professor Randall Fisher will be understanding and allow me to do my paper on the cycle of cervial mucus throughout a womans cycle. I know not much to do with business or information systems for that matter but where I've already spent so much time researching and I've read "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" from cover to cover .. oh well I can atleast hope right?
If anything I'm hoping this class will take my mind of TTC. My last shot was on September 10, 2003, which means it wore off sometime around December .. I really didn't expect it would take this long. I'm not sure why, but for some reason I thought I wouldn't follow statistics .. that I would be different somehow.
POAS syndrom is a bitch
Geez it certainly has been a while hasn't it? Well there's was a trip to NF and school starting up, and well I'm sure I could come up with atleast a half a dozen other excuses ...
POAS syndrom is killing me this week. I'm not quite sure why. I thought for sure once I was regularly getting my period I would be able to stop myself from Peeing On A Stick (POAS syndrom definition, when you can't seem to stop yourself from peeing on a stick) ... back to what I was saying, I truly thought the urge to constantly test and see if I was pregnant would go away once I had 28 day cycles coming regularly, suprisingly, I didn't know 28 days could seem to last forever. I've stopped myself. I have already spent a fortune on tests. I will control myself this cycle and not test until my period is atleast late .. well or atleast until implatation is even possible.
POAS syndrom is killing me this week. I'm not quite sure why. I thought for sure once I was regularly getting my period I would be able to stop myself from Peeing On A Stick (POAS syndrom definition, when you can't seem to stop yourself from peeing on a stick) ... back to what I was saying, I truly thought the urge to constantly test and see if I was pregnant would go away once I had 28 day cycles coming regularly, suprisingly, I didn't know 28 days could seem to last forever. I've stopped myself. I have already spent a fortune on tests. I will control myself this cycle and not test until my period is atleast late .. well or atleast until implatation is even possible.
